Coming back from college , i sit in the auto , my hair tied in a bun and i open a sandwich to kill the hunger . The damn traffic spoils the mood anyway . But today it is much worse . So, i take out my hand notebook and start penning down my thoughts .
Okay , as i just start up , a small little boy comes to me begging for the sandwich . Can't afford to give you the whole , i thought to myself . So, i gave him a 10 rupee note to feed himself .
Okay , so as the auto is struck in this traffic which leads to no where , i think - " Are the people that much Happy as they seem ? " .
Hmmm , after the much needed calculations i come to a conclusion . People are not that much happy as much as they seem to be . But because , when they see other people around , they think everybody around is happy , except them . So, like the other people , they put on a Mask which reads - " I AM SO HAPPY " .
But , they forget that they can fool people with the fake smiles but as they say - the eyes say it all .
So ,you must be thinking what made me to reach to a conclusion so fast ? Yes , i have an answer to this as well .
Because , the same question i asked to myself . Am i that much happy of what i pretend to be ? The spontaneous answer is - NO .
Now , i am not saying here that i am not happy at all . But not that much happy that i tell people i am . I miss granny , miss home like hell , miss " many " people at times , freak out at moments , feel disgusting when i go out for shopping and have to just console myself with the third best thing present , because i know dad is not here to pay my bills , and i just let it go after seeing the price tag .
Many other reasons as well , i resent a lot of things you did , feel hurtful when i sometimes think of the mistakes i did in the past .
So , i can count the umpteen number of things which give me a reason not to be that much Happy .
But , this doesn't mean that i am not happy ; it just means i get freaked out at times and nobody until now could figure out that i thought about the listed things as well .
Likewise , everyone has some dark hidden secrets which they never tell anybody about . And they bury them deep inside . That is not the reason why they are actually not happy , but because for the fact that never confess it in front of anybody and hence to the world - Wear a Mask of being Happy !
I was in the same situation until i talked and shared about my problems . Don't hide and be some other person behind whom you wanna hide . Accept what you are and trust me you will actually realize that you are happy . If you don't have problems then you might be not normal ; if you have you are - Absolutely fine .
More of it i can think , but the traffic has almost been cleared up . The little boy sitting next to me is smiling at me . He might be thinking of me as a pretty serious and studious girl . But i have something else going on in my mind . I wish he is that much happy of what his smile reflects , Hope he doesn't wear a Mask !
Okay , as i just start up , a small little boy comes to me begging for the sandwich . Can't afford to give you the whole , i thought to myself . So, i gave him a 10 rupee note to feed himself .
Okay , so as the auto is struck in this traffic which leads to no where , i think - " Are the people that much Happy as they seem ? " .
Hmmm , after the much needed calculations i come to a conclusion . People are not that much happy as much as they seem to be . But because , when they see other people around , they think everybody around is happy , except them . So, like the other people , they put on a Mask which reads - " I AM SO HAPPY " .
But , they forget that they can fool people with the fake smiles but as they say - the eyes say it all .
So ,you must be thinking what made me to reach to a conclusion so fast ? Yes , i have an answer to this as well .
Because , the same question i asked to myself . Am i that much happy of what i pretend to be ? The spontaneous answer is - NO .
Now , i am not saying here that i am not happy at all . But not that much happy that i tell people i am . I miss granny , miss home like hell , miss " many " people at times , freak out at moments , feel disgusting when i go out for shopping and have to just console myself with the third best thing present , because i know dad is not here to pay my bills , and i just let it go after seeing the price tag .
Many other reasons as well , i resent a lot of things you did , feel hurtful when i sometimes think of the mistakes i did in the past .
So , i can count the umpteen number of things which give me a reason not to be that much Happy .
But , this doesn't mean that i am not happy ; it just means i get freaked out at times and nobody until now could figure out that i thought about the listed things as well .
Likewise , everyone has some dark hidden secrets which they never tell anybody about . And they bury them deep inside . That is not the reason why they are actually not happy , but because for the fact that never confess it in front of anybody and hence to the world - Wear a Mask of being Happy !
I was in the same situation until i talked and shared about my problems . Don't hide and be some other person behind whom you wanna hide . Accept what you are and trust me you will actually realize that you are happy . If you don't have problems then you might be not normal ; if you have you are - Absolutely fine .
More of it i can think , but the traffic has almost been cleared up . The little boy sitting next to me is smiling at me . He might be thinking of me as a pretty serious and studious girl . But i have something else going on in my mind . I wish he is that much happy of what his smile reflects , Hope he doesn't wear a Mask !
Just read it . Fab :) But i wish that you always remain happy , without a Mask though ;) I specially coordinate with the Indian timings to read this as i am writing from NZ.
ReplyDeleteafter reading ur blog, nw i cn say, yes i m happy; as m nt wearing any masks....thanx fr writing such beautiful blogs.....:)
ReplyDeletemay god bless u, n may u always remain happy(but,without a mask)..
:D
@Naomi - Thank you so much . Am really flattered . Do keep me updated with your feed backs .
ReplyDelete@Atankshu - Be blessed , and i hope you never need one .
How do you always come up with such ideas and thoughts ? Loved the Caption ! ;)
ReplyDelete@Akriti - Thank you so much . Your feedbacks keep me motivated, and inspire me to always be better than before :) Do keep writing .
Deleteas always u write awsum.......now srsly i do need sme tutions.....;)
ReplyDeleteAwww ! Well , i would appreciate if you mention your name as well . Someone else also always demands the same ;) Anyway , Thank you so much and do keep writing :)
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